I feel I should write a few lines about a song I wrote and recorded around four years ago. Its title is different now, but at the time it was called ‘Captivity’.
Usually, after I finish a song, I don’t really know how important that is going to be. Many songs I genuinely love during the writing process become unbearably dull to my ears after some time, while others I don’t really care of, eventually, end up being my favourite ones. I never know.
The situation of ‘Captivity’ has always been different, though. When I started writing it, I knew it was an important song and, after four years, it still is.
The problem with songs you really love is that you want their recording to sound as good as possible. Unfortunately, although interesting, the recorded version of ‘Captivity’ wasn’t that good. That’s why you won’t find it in my first two EPs.
Fortunately, as it happens many times in our lives, what seemed to be a problem turned out to be a blessing:
‘Captivity’, which is now ‘Fear & Agony’, has become the most important song of the album I’m recording...
And that’s because I feel I’m not done with it...
And I feel I’m not done with it because the energy the song contains hasn’t been released yet!
I’m going to do that soon with the help of a special guest (yes, Hugh Cannon, I’m talking about you), and this time I won’t make the same mistakes (although I’m sure I will make some others...).
If you’re curious, this is the first stanza:
Can you hear the deep white noise
That heralds the executioner?
It mauls the crags and madly yells:
“Don’t waste your pleas: the sickle’s deaf.”
The main themes are, obviously, ‘fear’ and ‘agony’, but I’ve always felt there’s another one that underlines them...
The picture below comes from ‘Shame’, a film made by Ingmar Bergman in 1968. Four years ago I sampled the first dialogue of the film and added it to the recording of the song. That’s one of the few things that actually worked.
Thanks for reading!